Not just another Sunday.

19/04/2010
Monday [technically]
01:15

From now on I think I will just type my blogs on the laptop than paste it into the actual site on a later date.

This is for a number of reasons, some being:

1) Our internet it way too slow
2) I have too many exams and assignments, Facebook is already a distraction, so once I go onto the world wide web... I can click on anything and I will just get way distracted
3) I’ll actually write more, and when I’m thinking it ...rather than waiting when I can actually get on the internet (Because its that slow) and then forgetting what I was going to write
4) Plus it looks heaps neater when I write it here on word ?

Anyway I handed my first university essay on Friday!!! Go me ? But I highly doubt I’m going to get a credit or anything for it haha. I seriously only had 2 days to do it, and I only started it when B left. Fingers crossed it gets a pass at least!? Well Rosemarie helped me edit it till like 4am and we were both sure it was pretty decent.

And at the moment, well I’m about to go to bed after a long day which included accounting study for Tuesday’s Exam!?! And no my next line is not going to be a rant saying “!@#!@# I’m so screwed” because well, surprisingly I’m calm. I don’t know why, maybe because I know I can do most the theory questions because one of my classmate whose in 2nd yr gave me his notes. I know this might sound stupid, but I think it’s like a sign hahah.

Like I seriously thought I was screwed in the past week when it really hit me. But then all these random things started to happen. Like when B left he said he’d keep me in his thoughts, then on Facebook Tita Dona said she was proud of me (When I thought of these things... I seriously got all teary, like even on the train or daydreaming in class LOL)...and I really started reflecting on things, and praying and so I think God is somehow helping me get through this easier. Like okay everything isn’t working as perfectly as I planned or how I want it to be, but then again does anything in life? As long as I get through it, then that’s all I can ask for right!? He had a life planned for us anyway, a destiny and things will happen for a reason.
Like for CITP we organised something with the tutor which is not making it such a pain as it used to be, and for IIS we finished our latest group assignment which I personally thought was a pass (After all our team name is “A +”). And I actually finished my MPO essay, which wasn’t that difficult. And well accounting, I feel confident that I can tackle most questions; I mean how hard can it be right?

And I don’t know, but honestly I’m glad Kuya B actually did persuade Monica to go to that YFC camp. Even though she’s only been home for a couple of hours, I can already feel that it has made the house somewhat more calm, and peaceful. Like me and Dad went to Bankstown to observe the last activities and I actually wanted to be a part of it LOL. She actually looked so happy and I quote “Best weekend ever... I wish it never ended” I mean it even looked fun ? and I loved the atmosphere and their attitude towards praising God and the support they give each other, about what exactly – I don’t know yet, but it just seems cool ?

Ohh and Monica told me a few stuff, like all the girls who fancys B LOL. I guess that makes us proud to be his cousin haha.
So yeah I’m actually super excited about the YFC mega camp which I’m going to with Amy and hopefully Isabel if she doesn’t become a bigger stress head and just comes already!!!
I just feel like life is heaps easier, as in the challenges that I’m about to face is somewhat a breeze. It sounds so cheesy, I mean I would think things like this earlier, like why aren’t we as ‘religious’ as our other cousins living elsewhere, like on Dad’s side of the family. I mean Mum’s side is kinda excused since most of them live a different lifestyle here in Australia, and half of her siblings don’t even practice going to church and stuff. But yeah, I just like it now. As in I like what I can see that will come out of all this.
During my uni break this week I’m going to try and redo my resume and apply for a job. I really want to try and go with Monica to New Zealand for the conference in July. Either that (I get a job) or we somehow miraculously win the lotto or something LOL!!! How awesome would that be... *sigh*
Ohh yeah and something else... in Facebook news now... [Haha seriously its like the social networking thing of today’s era...”Where did you see/ hear that?”... FaceBook!!!]
Well on Friday it was Monica’s Birthday...and because she deleted me off her friends list ages ago (fr obvious sibling reasons)... I decided to say Happy Birthday on my status... it went along the lines of
“Happy Birthday to my sister monica who blocked and deleted me on facebook :P”
Bahaha and all of a sudden my cousins and stuff started commenting on it.., Ate Tin, Ate Trish, Ate Muri... then there was Tita Dona LMAO!!! And Sabrina even “liked” it and commented because she too was deleted due to a recent incident between them two (something about Sabrina blocking all family members on FB from seeing her wall...then when Monica asked about it, Sabrina apparently lied, then she got all pissed). Well I thought it was funny.
And Clarisse and I have also been having late night “msn video call chats” which gets rather interesting :P
Ohh and I wrote the other morning on my FB [yeah yeah haha] something like “Oh the joy of waking up to a pile of books.” And someone commented ... “In ten years you’ll be waking up to a man.”
Bahahah well yeah it was funny, and as Tita Dona added to that person’s comment “Hopefully it will be sooner than 10 years” LOL, well yeah it got me thinking... what will my life be in ten years (OMG I will just be turning 3 DECADES ewwww)

I would have graduated by then, hopefully have a decent job where I am at least happy with what I’m doing, have a hottie of a husband, children, you know a nice life ... but what I really wanted to know was... where would I stand then. As in will I attain that close, deeper, meaningful relationship with Him. But then I just thought to myself... “Why are you wandering.” I can know the answer to my own question now. What I do now can determine my future. No matter how difficult circumstances may be, I still have the power to keep Him with me at all times.

So yeahh... I guess the main point to my blog, not that I try to have a point every single time, I mean just simply recording my life maybe for entertaining purposes haha, is that being closer to God, whether through prayer, reflection or whatever, really lifts the weight off your shoulders haha. I mean it really feels as if the hurdles and challenges I was stressing about in terms of the future, its really nothing. Because I know He will always be there watching over me, helping me through times of trouble etc, and in return I should really be thanking Him more, simply because He is AWESOME xD.
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