Saturday, September 25, 2010

Just another lazy Saturday ( *but one that really made me think a lot).


So it's the end of another Saturday. A pretty lazy one.

Since Friday i have pretty much woken up at about 9am every morning. Way too early for my liking and so much earlier than my normal days where i wake up at like 11am the latest.

This morning I woke up to Alexandra and Nicholas given each other bed sandwiches, that is, squishing each other on the floor mattress. And the other morning it was Alexandra smiling at me with this big grin on her face, and i remember the words that came out of her mouth "Come on Simone, get into your play clothes and let's have a picnic with the animals :D"

So yeah i guess its not too bad waking up early, especially when its to play with my little cute cousin.

But yeah today was indeed a lazy day because i didnt do much. I didnt even need to get out of my pjs if i didnt want to because i didnt even go out of the house. I got up, had breakfast, played Shops, did some drawings, made a story book called "The little Lions", then had a nap from like 5-8ish. Then decided to face my fears and attempt to read the Java books. And I swear, as soon as i put all the books out in front of me and was ready to overcome my fear, I heard the gate and Nick and Alexandra came back from picking up Tita Mel at the airport.

But yeahh i should probs do some tonight before i go to bed.

And tonight I also had a D&M sesh with Tita Dona, as we do when she comes over. And i actually got a lot out of it. I mean I always do, but this time round it kinda made me feel like i do need to do something in my life. As in make a few changes. She made me feel like i have so much opportunities now then she did back then, so basically i shouldnt waste it and just go for it, whatever that is that i want and love doing.

Also its nearly summer. And OH MY i need to exercise sooo bad! And because it's getting warmer, i'm thinking of doing early morning walks before uni. So when i get back from midsem break this week, there will be three major changes:

1) WALK MORE~ so before uni i want to have done all my work for the day, so be more prepared. Then before heading off for the rest of the day i wanna go for a walk to and from Brighton at least 3 days a week.

2) EAT MORE HEALTHY~ seriously, one big disadvantage of being a student at UTS is that you get poor fast. I dunno where the heck all my money went, but i'm pretty sure its been going to food, and disgusting food like maccas! So basically i wanna be able to control my appetite and eat healthy. More Salads and sandwiches and stuff, less big macs :*

3) FOCUS ON STUDY!~ i dont wanna fail another subject, i'm gonna be at uni for 4 years already, so if i fail anymore and delay my graduation, Gahhh i'll be there forever.

Okay so anyway my 'aspired' typical day for the rest of this sem:


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MONDAY:

Monday morning needs to be a good morning since it's going to determine my attitude for the rest of the week. 

I need to prepare what i need to do during the week.



6:00am [Wake Up]

7:00am [Eat + Go through today's notes]

8:00am [Run]


10:50am [Go to church]
11:20am [Need to have left already for the station]

12:00 - 02:00pm    Marketing Lecture


 02:00 - 5:00pm [Eat/ Go through Marketing Lecture Notes/Go through last week's Notes + Tute Ques]

05:00 - 06:00pm    Marketing Tutorial

8:00pm [Type up this week's Marketing Notes]
Before bed: Go through tomorrow's Web Systems Lecture Notes + Lab notes, Tute Ques + Economics' Lecture Notes + Economics' Lecture Notes


TUESDAY:

6:00am [Wake Up]

7:00am [Eat + Go through today's notes]

8:00am [Run]

10:50am [Go to church]
11:20am [Need to have left already for the stationa1]

12:00 - 01:00pm    Web Systems Lecture
01:00 - 03:00pm    Web Systems  Lab

04:00 - 06:00pm   Economics Lecture
06:00 - 07:00pm   Economics Tutorial


WEDNESDAY:

6:00am [Wake Up]

7:00am [Eat + Go through today's notes]

8:00am [Run]

 [Do unfinished homework/ revision]

11:50am [Go to church]

01:00 - 03:00pm    YFC Meeting (Multifaith rooms)


THURSDAY
6:00am [Wake Up]

7:00am [Eat + Go through today's notes]

8:00am [Run]

 [Do unfinished homework/ revision]

11:50am [Go to church]

12:00pm [Catch train to uni]

01:00pm [Websystems revision/ catch up]

2:00pm [Programming revision/ catch up] . . . 

06:00 - 07:00pm    Programming Fundamentals Tutorial
07:00 - 09:00pm    Programming Fundamentals Lab


FRIDAY:

6:00am [Wake Up]

7:00am [Eat + Go through today's notes]

8:00am [Run]

 [Do unfinished homework/ revision]

06:00 - 08:00pm    Programming Fundamentals Lecture


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But yeah hopefully i can try my best to stick to it.

Another thing that i was talking about with Tita Dona was boys. I mean she didnt ask me if i  had a boyfriend or anything, it was mainly talking about what she went through as in her childhood. 

Then yeah when mum got home from work we all got onto the topic of this guy that they use to hang out with back in the day or whatever. Who also turns out to be the father of one of the guys i met in Campus - Based. And omgsh when i found out the connection i was like woahh small world mannn! Basically i showed my mother the City Cluster Camp note about a month ago, and she recognized the surname of the parent coordinators from the camp. And so yeah long story short, the Tito and my mum and her sisters basically use to hang back in the disco days or blahblahblah. It's just been weird and awkward thinking about it. But yeah its a LOL topic haha. A funny story anyway.

And then of course my mum decided to pull out all these photos and notes and cards and 'love letters' from all her admirers and Tita Dona and her had a good laugh for a while. Meanwhile my sisters and i were just staring at them O.O thinking are are your serious!?!? and rolling our eyes BAHAHA. Well its not really something you wanna talk about with your mum. I mean its kinda weird mannn. Like Ted in How I Met Your Mother. Like how the heck would those kids be feeling huh!? AND they full stalked one of the guys on facebook... SAD!

Also yesterday I went out to bevo movies with Shannon, Panto, Megan, Marlene, Amanda and Danskin. I dont really see em much anymore since we all go to different unis and work and get busy and whatnot. And so yeah it was good to catchup with them i guess. Like yea i have friends in YFC who get me in terms of life issues and my faith and my desire to grow in that and stuff. But being around my old highschool mates kinda makes things feel more real. They're a good bunch of kids i guess. Like i dont think any of em agree with the things i believe in, faith wise. But i guess that's okay coz it reminds me of the many challenges God has given me and my fellow Brothers and Sisters. We cant just grab someone off the street and turn them into a Catholic. That's just insane.

But yeah we watched this movie Easy A. It was actually pretty good. About this girl whos life all changed because of this one lie, a lie about her having sex with this guy. Well yeah there is more to it but what i got out of it was the cliche things about Amanda Byne's character- little miss church girl/ reverend's daughter. 

Well obviously they werent Catholic, just some sort of Christian, but yeah Megan and stuff kept being annoying and was like ohh is this like your bible study group?!
I just want them to see that its not like that, and its more than that. But i guess i need to grow stronger in my faith first, and then i'll have a better defense when it comes to all that or whatever.
And i also read of facebook the other (seriously a good source of info, i love how people can easily share good things and thoughts...) but yeah someone was saying how in the Bible Jesus could get so many people to come on his side in terms of faith and stuff. And yeah the person who wrote this said something like how he wishes today's evangelisation was like that... as easy as it seemed or was back then.

And then this other person commented on the status saying that we have to remember that...
We often lose focus on why we are doing all this which makes the evangelisation process or whatever so hard. Like we have this concept or desire to get all these people to believe in the things we believe in, but sometimes we forget that its all for God and not for our own good.
Okay found it...

"As Jesus passed on from there, he saw a man called Matthew sitting at the tax booth, and he said to him, “Follow me.” And he rose and followed him." 

- Matthew 9:9 . 

.. don't you miss those days evangelisation was this easy...

One of the Comments:     it is this easy, it is only difficult because most of the time we tend to evangelize for our own glory. we forget that what we are doing is for God and not for us.


I dunno if that will make sense when i reread it later on. but yeah, we just need to remind ourselves that all the things we do is for Him, and only Him!

Right this moment people at the Suburban Camp are probably sleeping after a long day, and they wouldve had variety night tonight too. Thinking about what i did at the exact moments a week ago is kinda like woahh.

Well yeah i guess i can finally bring myself to think about it now. I dunno but after these kinda things its just hard writing what i think. I think its coz im kinda scared, coz sometimes writing it down makes me think and reflect about things even more. And it makes me analyse things to the max. And sometimes im scared of doing that, because it will make me ask so many things, and if i dont get the answers, im scared that i'll just be hanging there, and just have to face the facts and just go a long with it all confused.

Gosh this is sounding so weird. But yeah that's what i think i feel anyway.

So yeah City Cluster Camp. I got up there and did my sharing and basically balled my eyes out. I was kinda upset with myself coz i felt like i didnt make sense since everything i planned didnt go right. And since the talk was early in the morning, i was thinking about it the whole day. It was only after we went canoeing that i could finally control my emotions.

It's just weird thinking about it and looking back coz it makes me cringe. I just need to remember what i keep telling others - that its all for Him and He would be proud.

One of my mates from CB told me how much he likes the days after camp because thats when the newsfeed on Facebook is filled with nice wall posts lol. I mean yes we're always nice to each other, but after camp you really see it, and see God's love through the posts and statuses between friends who just met each other, friends who worked hard preparing for the camp, the service team and their participants... you just really see the love and its just awesome! Sooo can't wait for Covenant!

:)

And yeahh after i did my sharing i remember this one sister in particular came up to me. She kept saying how proud she was of me and stuff and she said she was going to email Kuya. I'm pretty sure she said that a couple of times during that day, and everytime she said it, i was like >.<. And thinking mann is she serious, that's just heaps embarrassing! But yeah, she did. Well i think she did. Because a few days after the camp i got a heaps random wall post. It made me smile though, i'm pretty sure i cried a bit too. But happy tears :)just knowing that there's beautiful people out there who you can really count on. It's just like awesome. 

God is awesome :)

And i remember one other thing the same sister said during a service meeting at the camp, that before we can go out and pour out our all and share God's love through the participants, we have to make sure our relationship with God is excellent first.

I guess that goes with everyday stuff too. Like before we go out and change a person's life in whatever way that may be, we have to make sure our prayer life and relationship with God is at its best.


Tonight Clarisse mentioned how my 'wall' was more Holy or wotevs. When she said that i automatically thought facebook wall. But she meant my wall in my room. But i only have one thing on my wall that could make her think that, and its the painting i have yet to finish which has the passage:

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised

- Proverbs 31:30 
Anyways its like heaps late now. 2:04am. Well not late since this is kinda normal for me, but the Fullers are here and so that means early outings and long days, and plus i needed to start working on Programming ages ago and i havnt even opened up the books yet. 

Awww so cute i just glanced and saw Nick asleep and Beau next to him. Beau is full like lying on his back with his paws like sticking up and stuff haha.

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