“Ask and you shall receive; seek and you shall find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” Matthew 7:7

Okay so it’s another lazy Sunday.

I feel as if i’m only starting Uni  this week because I’ve been skipping a lot of lectures and classes because it clashed with that receptionist job.

So everyone is out and i’m home alone. Monica is probably at work or something and everyone else went to the Saturday markets in Marickville. 

I’m currently sitting outside on the back porch because its actually a  nice warm sunny day and there isn’t many distractions out here, unlike earlier when I was trying to write this inside, in front of the tv.

Anyway so many things have happened this week, that I felt like I really needed some quiet time to reflect on all the things that have happened. I mean, I haven’t really prayed a lot these coming weeks, and I’ve stopped going to church to pray before uni, and when i did pray it was all about me and what i wanted.

So I went on facebook and found a link to the New Zealand CFC YFC blog and read a couple of inspiring sharings. The latest is about prayer, and focused on the meanings behind the passage 

“Ask and you shall receive; seek and you shall find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” Matthew 7:7

He explained it in the three different parts and it really made me see things a lot more clearer. Like say the bit Seek and you shall find. With so many things happening this week, I was praying all the time only for God to help me cope with everything that I may be struggling with. But the thing is, I really didn’t do much to help Him. I just asked him for things and expected Him to just magically help me just like that. In the sharing I just read about, the guy explains the story of Jesus feeding the 5000 (John 6:5 – 15). In this passage God could have easily gave everyone bread and provided for the hungry. But instead the disciples searched for food, and in their seek for it, they found a young boy who freely offered what he had, and turned it into something greater. So basically when we ask God for something, we need to help him and actually work for it too. And if we reflect and question what it is we really desire, we may see that He has already provided it to us, but we are looking in the wrong place and miss the opportunities that God had laid ahead for us.

And take the last bit Knock and the door shall be open. If we knock on His door for help, He will open the door and help. But its the notion of actually being bothered to take those steps to walk to it, and knock (like talking to him through Prayer) that will actually get us there. I mean God will listen and provide so long as we put in the effort to get there.

And once there He will give us more than we need, and will bless us with much more than we could ever imagine.

So i think this is something I really should be thinking about at the moment. At the moment I’m worried about falling behind in Uni and at the same time trying to find another job that is flexible so that it won’t clash with study.

All week I’ve been negative about everything to do with uni. Saying "eeeeww I have class till so and so” or saying and predicting that I’m already going to fail some of the subjects this sem.

But Why?

If I let God in then He will help me. I just need to give Him that time and talk to Him. Like seriously Websystems and Programming at the moment are killing me. But now I think about it. It’s only week 4 out of like 10 and so I can turn all this around. Put effort in it and seriously He will help if I just put all my trust and faith in him.

“As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.”

So yeah. I’m going to organise and start planning my week. So that I can get back into my old study mode. And become more positive about it.

I’m also going to do a talk this week and I’m pretty sure its going to be the first meeting at UTS for Spring Sem so I want it to be relevant as well as make my fellow CB friends think and reflect on all the good things that are yet to come this Sem.

Also this morning I read the newspaper. The first few pages were on the election. Yesterday I voted for the first time, and voted for Liberal because many of my YFC friends wrote a lot of things about the Liberals, and many I strongly agreed on, like the fact that Tony Abbott is against Abortion and he is an active Christian. Although I feel like i didn’t really take the time to reflect and think for myself. As in question a lot of the things. Like just because he is Christian doesn’t make him good if his policies aren’t the better choice for the nation and it’s economy.

But yeah once I skipped through all those pages in the paper i came across the page about the soldiers in Afghanistan that died last night. In the article there was a picture of one of the soldiers with his two young daughters aged 8 and 10. They were the most gorgeous little girls I have ever seen and their smile made me smile. And to think that now they are without a father made me really teary. I read the whole article and it said that when their dad wasn’t deployed he was very active in his daughters’ activities despite being divorced from his ex wife. And I don’t know, the whole thing just made me really upset because I’m sure those happy little girls in the picture loved their dad so much, and now he is gone.

It just really made me think about myself.  I’m lucky that nothing like that has happened to my family or friends. And so I should live each day knowing that God has given me so many opportunities in life, and I shouldn’t waste it. Take university for example. I have the opportunity to study unlike a lot of other people in the country and everywhere else in other countries. So I should strive for excellence and not just throw it all away, because it may even one day help me to help others in a few years... where hopefully I will be starting a career and at the same time use the opportunities and challenges I have been given to Know God and make God Known!

On this day of your life, Simone, we believe God wants you to know ... that God doesn't give you what you want, God gives you according to who you are.
	Change who you are to change your life.

So yeah basically what I’m going to try and do this week is spare some quiet time to talk to God and pray.

I saw this other thing on facebook where someone started an Active Prayer thing, where everyday at 12pm, no matter where you are, who you are with what you are doing, we are all praying to our One awesome God :)

So this week I am really going to be more self motivated and to know Him in a way of becoming Dependant on Him and his plans for me.