Woahh I don't know where to begin (as always =P)
Noo but seriously its as if soo many things are happening at once... and this time, not like last year, its not always bad things. Which is a great change.
I think in my last post I mentioned something about the covenant thing. And Yehh I went which I don't regret. I got to know heaps more about people. And this one kid Philip - he's my future bestie for life lols.
Umm but yehh I've been goin to the UTS CB meanings and its been really good. And the talks so far (well technically I've only been to one meeting, coz the other time it was just the 2 leaders and me lol) the talks have been relevant. Like the last one was about perseverance. And it was a talk about the whole YFC thing and our faith. Like yes its not all about the camps, the worships and that feeling of being high all the time. You kinda have to meet Him halfway, which can be done through the way we serve and do things everyday.
I also went to the Sydney Uni meeting last Friday haha, because I had a massive break and so I met up with Isabel for a bit and went with her.
And I've also spoken to Kuya B recently. Mannn I get the whole thing now. Like why he is so dedicated and passionate. He talked about how its a way he can serve God, and that its just truly rewarding. Honestly as I told the other leaders at UTS, my initial thought was that it was 'just another Youth group'. But boy I was wrong. And it's only just begun so I can't wait for what's to come (like OLC xD). Like seriously from the last time we saw Kuya soo much has changed it just unbelievable. It awesome. Heaps heaps awesome haha (heaps is something everyone in YFC seems to say its like weird lol)
I've also become closer to some people in particular. The other night I went to one of their houses, and like I've never felt so... free!? As in whatever I said didn't sound stupid because he got it, just like all the other people in YFC would have! It soo awesome :) (Damnn i need a new word, its kinda sickening)
Anyway one of the topics I brought up was how last year wasn't really a good year because of so many things, including the Samantha issue. I unblocked her when the whole email between her and Shannon started... and realised she did the same, unblocked me.
And basically all last week I was thinking, why is it this way, I mean it dosn't have to be. I have the ability to change things for the better. Yes ignoring the whole situation and moving on pretending it never happened is an option, but so is forgiveness. I have the strength to forgive, not only her, but myself for the stupid things I did which hurt so many of my friends, and I can move on and learn from it. So yeah basically I spoke about that the other night, and when I got home I thought "I'm going to send her a message on fb" But then I realised I couldn't send her one unless I added her first. So I let it go for the night. But then I woke up that morning to a new friend request - Samantha Martins. Seriously I was shocked. But I really think its all God's works. I mean He works in mysterious ways, and this was one of them, it was time for healing and forgiveness.
So basically i accepted, and sent her a long message. I kinda knew it was coming, when she commented on a school photo from Amy's album, where the three of us were tagged, so she obviously knew I would find out about the comment 'I miss school...". Then she started commenting on my pictures and statuses... and eventually when she was able to send a message on facebook on her computer, she replied.
Basically saying how she wants to start over genuinely, because she knows I am innocent and a good friend or something like that... and that she would like to meet up one day :)
I don't know if this would have happened if I hadn't joined YFC, but I know it definitely has made a huge difference. My attitudes towards things are heaps better, and I feel so much happier.
Even simple things like praying when I wake up, saying grace (which I have to say was weird at first) and praying before I study or on the train... it feels like it has helped so much, because I know God is up there doing His thing and taking care of me :) I'm starting to appreciate things more and not take the simplest smallest things for granted. Because
Noo but seriously its as if soo many things are happening at once... and this time, not like last year, its not always bad things. Which is a great change.
I think in my last post I mentioned something about the covenant thing. And Yehh I went which I don't regret. I got to know heaps more about people. And this one kid Philip - he's my future bestie for life lols.
Umm but yehh I've been goin to the UTS CB meanings and its been really good. And the talks so far (well technically I've only been to one meeting, coz the other time it was just the 2 leaders and me lol) the talks have been relevant. Like the last one was about perseverance. And it was a talk about the whole YFC thing and our faith. Like yes its not all about the camps, the worships and that feeling of being high all the time. You kinda have to meet Him halfway, which can be done through the way we serve and do things everyday.
I also went to the Sydney Uni meeting last Friday haha, because I had a massive break and so I met up with Isabel for a bit and went with her.
And I've also spoken to Kuya B recently. Mannn I get the whole thing now. Like why he is so dedicated and passionate. He talked about how its a way he can serve God, and that its just truly rewarding. Honestly as I told the other leaders at UTS, my initial thought was that it was 'just another Youth group'. But boy I was wrong. And it's only just begun so I can't wait for what's to come (like OLC xD). Like seriously from the last time we saw Kuya soo much has changed it just unbelievable. It awesome. Heaps heaps awesome haha (heaps is something everyone in YFC seems to say its like weird lol)
I've also become closer to some people in particular. The other night I went to one of their houses, and like I've never felt so... free!? As in whatever I said didn't sound stupid because he got it, just like all the other people in YFC would have! It soo awesome :) (Damnn i need a new word, its kinda sickening)
Anyway one of the topics I brought up was how last year wasn't really a good year because of so many things, including the Samantha issue. I unblocked her when the whole email between her and Shannon started... and realised she did the same, unblocked me.
And basically all last week I was thinking, why is it this way, I mean it dosn't have to be. I have the ability to change things for the better. Yes ignoring the whole situation and moving on pretending it never happened is an option, but so is forgiveness. I have the strength to forgive, not only her, but myself for the stupid things I did which hurt so many of my friends, and I can move on and learn from it. So yeah basically I spoke about that the other night, and when I got home I thought "I'm going to send her a message on fb" But then I realised I couldn't send her one unless I added her first. So I let it go for the night. But then I woke up that morning to a new friend request - Samantha Martins. Seriously I was shocked. But I really think its all God's works. I mean He works in mysterious ways, and this was one of them, it was time for healing and forgiveness.
So basically i accepted, and sent her a long message. I kinda knew it was coming, when she commented on a school photo from Amy's album, where the three of us were tagged, so she obviously knew I would find out about the comment 'I miss school...". Then she started commenting on my pictures and statuses... and eventually when she was able to send a message on facebook on her computer, she replied.
Basically saying how she wants to start over genuinely, because she knows I am innocent and a good friend or something like that... and that she would like to meet up one day :)
I don't know if this would have happened if I hadn't joined YFC, but I know it definitely has made a huge difference. My attitudes towards things are heaps better, and I feel so much happier.
Even simple things like praying when I wake up, saying grace (which I have to say was weird at first) and praying before I study or on the train... it feels like it has helped so much, because I know God is up there doing His thing and taking care of me :) I'm starting to appreciate things more and not take the simplest smallest things for granted. Because
"God is good - ALL THE TIME! All the time - GOD IS GOOD!
God is where? EVERYWHERE! Everywhere? GOD IS THERE!!"
Seriously. Life. Changing!
At the moment its 1:26 am and I'm just about to start a couple of hours of intense study :|
Accounting of course. And seriously if I hadn't started praying - study routine, I think I'd be doomed to fail.
Thinking about the the extra things I would worry about if I wasn't part of YFC and didn't pay attention to Him... is just crazy!!! I guess I just have to keep telling myself that I'm in a lucky position right now where the only major thing I really have to worry about is my studies.
Accounting of course. And seriously if I hadn't started praying - study routine, I think I'd be doomed to fail.
Thinking about the the extra things I would worry about if I wasn't part of YFC and didn't pay attention to Him... is just crazy!!! I guess I just have to keep telling myself that I'm in a lucky position right now where the only major thing I really have to worry about is my studies.
And the YFC Campus - Based motto :
Excellence. Passion. Integrity.
Its really got me thinking. Because not only do we have to strive for excellence through our actions which we lift up to God, as in through the way we act towards others, we also have to strive for excellence in our academic studies, especially since we are Campus Based :)
So yeahh Ive been up most nights studying (or testing the webcam; see exhibit B below haha). I guess I only focus when its dark, quiet and I know the world around me is sleeping hehe...
So yeahh Ive been up most nights studying (or testing the webcam; see exhibit B below haha). I guess I only focus when its dark, quiet and I know the world around me is sleeping hehe...
That reminds me... I'm wearing these fingerless gloves from Target they are soo warm :) And I also got this new grey beanie :) Its pretty... yehh no you can't see it in the picture... this was the only decent looking one of me that could be uploaded xD
But yeahh thats it for now I guess.
Ohh and currently listening to: Matt Maher (haha got some songs from Isabel... I get why she was so hooked on him since WYD now) and B.O.B & Hayley Williams - Airoplanes <3 it! Lady Gaga is kinda getting annoying now.
*Sigh* im off now.
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