The End of 09

So my first entry is a rant. Something ive been holding in me for too long.

This is wierd. I usually write stuff down... but apparently blogging is the new thing =)

Anyway I dont know if people can read this or not but at the moment i dont really care

this year has definately been crazy with hsc and stuff. and hanging around annoying people who dont give a f*ck about anyone but themselves which really frustrated me.

there is this one girl who justs put all this shit up on her fb status every minute trying to put out her point...telling the world

"I love blahblahblah shit"

then later

"I hate fucking bitches"

but no one really cares because she is the b*** who only thinks about herself. And then minutes later she puts up a status saying she thinks

"people who write statuses about other people are low".

well what the hell is wrong with you then!?

And by doing this blog its for me to look back and have a laugh at since atm its for my private viewing and no one even knows about it...

this may sound like some immature thing... i mean its fb...dont read it then. but it was more than that... it was my school life ...like her telling me crapp about another girl who i actually liked... bitching to me about her... making me dislike people because so and so did this to her. If she was ever good at anything... it was that... and convincing people she was the victim.

im just glad that everything is over. as in all the things i had to see her for is finished. i just want to be myself again. never having to worry whether or not that annoying freak is gonna call me anytime soon... so i dont have to tell my sisters who answer to pretend im in the freaking shower or make up some stupid excuse.

im just sick of all her conversations being about someone... how theyre fat and ugly... how she feels so sorry for them because of the colour of their hair.

And at those times all i could think was "fcking get a life you sad bitch... its no wonder you cant stick to one job"

im just sick of shallow people like her who thinks everything is perfect for them. even her mum was a b***... like mother, like daughter i guess.

But now i know who my real friends are... and those people who tried to pull me out of this mess i put myself through... at least they are normal people... who have normal conversations which dont involve rating how pretty our friends are... who dont f***ing b**** 24-7...who dont like starting arguments... who know how to have fun.

For a while I was convinced she'd change... and others would tell me to keep dreaming. Well those others were right... some people never change. The trust I had for her will never ever exist.

Another friend who i had once had a fallout with 2yrs ago has actually given me great advice on this situation. I guess such experiences only make a person stronger. she made me see that this bigger group of friends -who i saw differently because of this girl- have actually been more supportive...but i was too blind to see it.

i dont think ive actually gone all emotional about this situation because i just pushed it aside and tried to focus on my academic work...which actually made the situation even worse by somewhat ignoring it. And now looking back at what ive done... what ive missed... because of this...it does make me quite upset.

all i wanted was to study hard this yr... because i knew it would help with my dream of living in a mansion by the beach with a hottie of a husband one day lmao :)

... living the life i could only ever dream of ... things that would make me happy
but NO it was really hard when people like her would call and tell me she wasnt wasting any time for herself because she wasnt getting an atar. Well F***ing goodluck to you then!!!

im not saying that shes not going to be successful because of that...but i know if she dosnt...it because shes an idiot who thinks everything will just turn out right if she stays thin and the 'prettiest'.

On the holiday i went on i would be talking to her as we walked down the esplanade.. and when i didnt get any response it was coz she was analysing people... "omg theyre hot... f*** i feel sorry for that fatty"...and moments later she would see her reflection in a shop window and smile.

if i ever grow to be a person like that...someone slap me!!!

She would always tell me how our friends are immature...wont get anywhere... wont get to uni and i would try and argue that...because i damn well know they will be more successful than her.

So thats my goal anyway. That if there is a reunion in 10 or so years.. i will be more successful that that freak...and so will the rest of the group to prove her wrong.

And if i have learnt anything from the past 6 years of highschool...its that i

must not hang out and socialise with narrow minded bitches

- who a close buddy once said... should never be associated with the word 'friend'.

But then again thats life right... high school bitchiness never dies... so its like this whole thing was a lesson...

well then thank you b****. you've definitely made me a better person for seeing your self-centred ways...now pretty pretty please annoy someone else and f*** off !!!

Well thats the end of my rant for today...and hopefully for the rest of the year because i do want to have a relaxing and joyful christmas holidays. But then again im getting my atar in like 3 days so if that turns out shit... then i'll be expecting another rant

wow this was fun