Well today went well. I like that im home already at 1:17 pm nice and warm.
The temperature is slowly decreasing. But i aint complaining coz i LOVE winter and winter clothes ;)
Ohh and the lecture thing went well. We had an 1hr and 1/2 early mark.
Apparently in the next one we have to do some lame comprehension test coz after that they're going to split us up into groups for the workshops.
Anyway and the lecturer mentioned something about communication and crap.
And thats my next goal. To improve my oral communication skills, coz atm its probably weaker than my written. Which i now remember admitting to the whole class :\ wtf.
So yeah im gonna try and study hard for this stuff, well not hard, coz i know its not that hard and impossible, i just dont want to fail or do lower than i expected when i know i was capable of so much more. HSC was something i need to learn from.
Anyway im prob gonna clean up now or sleep :) Uni life right now is awesome.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Uni soon :)
Just came back from camp...well two days ago anyway.
And honestly, besides some of the lame activities... i thought it was awesome
I got to meet heaps of people and now im more confident about going to uni.
So many things happened at camp... that its all i ever talked about in yesterday and the day before when i met up with Shannon and then Isabel and Mullens.
I shall recall them soon
And honestly, besides some of the lame activities... i thought it was awesome
I got to meet heaps of people and now im more confident about going to uni.
So many things happened at camp... that its all i ever talked about in yesterday and the day before when i met up with Shannon and then Isabel and Mullens.
I shall recall them soon
Friday, February 12, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
I should really stop turning off the computer at the wrong time. Just when i thought i was done i wasnt.
Anyway Cheryls party was tonight and it was awesome fun despite me shannon danskin and mullens looking like loners every now and then bahahha
Cheryl seemed to of had fun so hopefully she did coz she deserves it. Ohh and Isabel made her this speech and it was so cheezy and cute. Cecil did one too and she refered to this time once in economics when we had mcgorry and we were in the computer rooms. Instead of doing our work we went on love calculators lol and she mentioned how they were 83% compatible.
Lol. These girls. The "Asians" as they were called in school have been so much fun to be around. I hope i dont loose contact with many of em.
And andrea was there. We're like sooo excited for uni!!!! xD
Ohh and YES that thing is still in my head. Its been repeating over and over again. When i wake up i remember it like 5mins later and think FcK. Hopefully it will all be better as time goes by.
And ive been cleaning the house lately and realised that i love interior design. Well i wont say love coz then i should do a career in that. Its just soo pretty. I showed mum this one foto of a deck with one of those long lounges/ day bed thingies and even she said it was pretty so hopefully she will buy one.
And ive been thinking of ideas to make the house less cluttery and gloomy. So firstly gonna hang those black and white fotos because theyre prob gonna be the cheapest thing im gonna do. One step at a time.
Ohh and last night when i was talking to joey there was alot of funny stuff. Like how he said he has a craving for mums hot chocolate. i was like wtf random lol. And i asked when they were gonna come back to visit. He said, you never know- we might move there. That would be interesting. And he also mentioned how it wouldve been awesome if we grew up together since were in the same age bracket. Im so glad he said that because now i dont think im weird for thinking the same thing sometimes. Coz i dont have any cousins here whos the same age unlike clarisse and rosemarie. I always thought that would be awesome!!!
And we mentioned all those times in the philippines...games...being childish and stuff...and we made a deal that no matter what happens, when we go back we have to spend a whole day doing stuff like that again haha even though we're like 18, 19 =) i soooo cant wait to go now!!! Hopefully we'll have enough savings to go. Gossssssh im like excited.
Anyway im gonna organise these diy projects before i get sick of doing em or dont have the time.
Anyway Cheryls party was tonight and it was awesome fun despite me shannon danskin and mullens looking like loners every now and then bahahha
Cheryl seemed to of had fun so hopefully she did coz she deserves it. Ohh and Isabel made her this speech and it was so cheezy and cute. Cecil did one too and she refered to this time once in economics when we had mcgorry and we were in the computer rooms. Instead of doing our work we went on love calculators lol and she mentioned how they were 83% compatible.
Lol. These girls. The "Asians" as they were called in school have been so much fun to be around. I hope i dont loose contact with many of em.
And andrea was there. We're like sooo excited for uni!!!! xD
Ohh and YES that thing is still in my head. Its been repeating over and over again. When i wake up i remember it like 5mins later and think FcK. Hopefully it will all be better as time goes by.
And ive been cleaning the house lately and realised that i love interior design. Well i wont say love coz then i should do a career in that. Its just soo pretty. I showed mum this one foto of a deck with one of those long lounges/ day bed thingies and even she said it was pretty so hopefully she will buy one.
And ive been thinking of ideas to make the house less cluttery and gloomy. So firstly gonna hang those black and white fotos because theyre prob gonna be the cheapest thing im gonna do. One step at a time.
Ohh and last night when i was talking to joey there was alot of funny stuff. Like how he said he has a craving for mums hot chocolate. i was like wtf random lol. And i asked when they were gonna come back to visit. He said, you never know- we might move there. That would be interesting. And he also mentioned how it wouldve been awesome if we grew up together since were in the same age bracket. Im so glad he said that because now i dont think im weird for thinking the same thing sometimes. Coz i dont have any cousins here whos the same age unlike clarisse and rosemarie. I always thought that would be awesome!!!
And we mentioned all those times in the philippines...games...being childish and stuff...and we made a deal that no matter what happens, when we go back we have to spend a whole day doing stuff like that again haha even though we're like 18, 19 =) i soooo cant wait to go now!!! Hopefully we'll have enough savings to go. Gossssssh im like excited.
Anyway im gonna organise these diy projects before i get sick of doing em or dont have the time.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
yeh
So umm ive kinda made this whole speech thing in my head of what im gonna say...its just been bugging me all day.
Ohh and im kinda getting the song...its not taking as quick as i thought but hey practice makes it better (a new guitar would too!!!!). Its prob gonna be the only song i can play for a while since i used up all our internet...not really but its past the percentage day thingymajig
But anyway yeh im gonna write it down here later on. Even if i dont ever say it to them, it will hopefully still make me feel a bit better. The whole situation was stupid and i had a massive headache, so now i got to face the music.
I'll write it later on.
But yeahh atm im looking at some pics i can put on a frame in the hallway, i reckon that would look mad...like black and white ones
later.....
Ohh and im kinda getting the song...its not taking as quick as i thought but hey practice makes it better (a new guitar would too!!!!). Its prob gonna be the only song i can play for a while since i used up all our internet...not really but its past the percentage day thingymajig
But anyway yeh im gonna write it down here later on. Even if i dont ever say it to them, it will hopefully still make me feel a bit better. The whole situation was stupid and i had a massive headache, so now i got to face the music.
I'll write it later on.
But yeahh atm im looking at some pics i can put on a frame in the hallway, i reckon that would look mad...like black and white ones
later.....
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12.27AM
Ok well here it goes
I deeply apologize for the way i was the other day at your house. I admit that it was disrespectful the way i acted and i will try to make sure it does not happen again.
That morning was not a good morning as i had to deal with something i had never had to face before which id rather not disclose, and add that with a massive headache, i was not entirely thinking straight. Not that it is a good reason for you to excuse what happen.
I just thought i said hi as i walked in and i thought you heard. And i didnt come up to you because i thought you were busy. I now know not to assume such things.
And i was also acting that way as i was getting ready to give you and audrey a surprise. But obviously i went about it the wrong way and for that i apologise again, the rudeness was not neccessary.
I understand how you appreciate being respected in your own home and i do apologise. I did not intend to be rude nor disrespect you.
I have now thought about my actions deeply, and is embarrassed at the consequences of my actions.
And so it does not happen again in the future i will make sure to limit my visits unless necessary.
omfg i just finished and its 2:36 wtf im not sure but i thin that whole time i was chattin to shannon and kuya joey on fb chat. I didnt think it was that long. Anyway im gonna clean the back room. Cleaning for some reason makes me feel less guilty about a lot of things.
12.27AM
Ok well here it goes
I deeply apologize for the way i was the other day at your house. I admit that it was disrespectful the way i acted and i will try to make sure it does not happen again.
That morning was not a good morning as i had to deal with something i had never had to face before which id rather not disclose, and add that with a massive headache, i was not entirely thinking straight. Not that it is a good reason for you to excuse what happen.
I just thought i said hi as i walked in and i thought you heard. And i didnt come up to you because i thought you were busy. I now know not to assume such things.
And i was also acting that way as i was getting ready to give you and audrey a surprise. But obviously i went about it the wrong way and for that i apologise again, the rudeness was not neccessary.
I understand how you appreciate being respected in your own home and i do apologise. I did not intend to be rude nor disrespect you.
I have now thought about my actions deeply, and is embarrassed at the consequences of my actions.
And so it does not happen again in the future i will make sure to limit my visits unless necessary.
*****
omfg i just finished and its 2:36 wtf im not sure but i thin that whole time i was chattin to shannon and kuya joey on fb chat. I didnt think it was that long. Anyway im gonna clean the back room. Cleaning for some reason makes me feel less guilty about a lot of things.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
calmed down
so a few hours later ive kinda calmed down... not that i or anyone else should forgive me for my...manners or wotevs its called.
Anyway for the past few hours ive been in the room playing the guitar learning Thinking of you by Katy Perry and im pretty confident i will be really good at it by the end of the day..
AND because of my stupid sleeping pattern i dont plan on going back to sleep till tonight which is kinda crazy
But im sure its the only way to get myself back to normal.
In the meanwhile until they wake up (coz i obviously cant play all night in case they all wake up and think WTF) so yeah im just gonna watch some more videos which teach strumming. i know wtf, its only strumming but it never EVER sounds right when i do it EVER
So yeah and hopefully i will be alright at it and i can post a youtube video...omfg that remind me i got to get my TikTok video ready for panto coz i promised id upload a vid for her on her bday :|
ohh and mullens too gahhh im gna be busy
AND i got to redo my stupid resume otherwise they will keep telling me to apply for centrelink or some shizz
AND i got to get into my pjs and pretend i actually had some sleep or else my parents will go nutts
So yeah till then......hopefully the day will be much better with my head being more clearer (even with no sleep!?)
Anyway for the past few hours ive been in the room playing the guitar learning Thinking of you by Katy Perry and im pretty confident i will be really good at it by the end of the day..
AND because of my stupid sleeping pattern i dont plan on going back to sleep till tonight which is kinda crazy
But im sure its the only way to get myself back to normal.
In the meanwhile until they wake up (coz i obviously cant play all night in case they all wake up and think WTF) so yeah im just gonna watch some more videos which teach strumming. i know wtf, its only strumming but it never EVER sounds right when i do it EVER
So yeah and hopefully i will be alright at it and i can post a youtube video...omfg that remind me i got to get my TikTok video ready for panto coz i promised id upload a vid for her on her bday :|
ohh and mullens too gahhh im gna be busy
AND i got to redo my stupid resume otherwise they will keep telling me to apply for centrelink or some shizz
AND i got to get into my pjs and pretend i actually had some sleep or else my parents will go nutts
So yeah till then......hopefully the day will be much better with my head being more clearer (even with no sleep!?)
Ok then
Well i promised the next time i make a post will be trying to rewrite what i lost in the last blog.
Well its not happening. Not now anyway.
Coz today i realised alot of stupid things that i need to change.
If i go back to my earlier blogs of this year... i prob mentioned my new years resolutions...
Lets get an update on that.
So 1) Play guitar....yeh ive been trying to look at stuff every now and then
2) My tagalog... yeh ive been looking at the book clarisse and rosingo gave every now and then
3) Be more grateful....yeah well that is what i need to work on!!!
*Sigh* this is taking me long to actually type... because thinking about it makes me feel like a fool and embarrassed for being soo...rude!? But i have to face it now before it becomes bigger and i just become a total biatchhh
Anyway i had the most annoying morning. And it was also audreys birthday. So we go to Their house. And i dont know i was just soo buggered and *** looked kinda busy so i didnt go over to say hi... which i usually do... the point is i just basically went in there and didnt greet anyone...and he was really really pissed coz even clarisse went to him while i was having a convo and he kinda said something to her.
Farrrrk i dunno anyway yeh ive been thinking... as a famiily me and my sisters usually say hi and shizz when relatives and visitors come over...but recently that just faded. I dunno why. I guess coz we dont really do it to our parents anymore because recently alot of shizz has happened which hasnt been nice. Last year especially was fckn tough coz we even had to go to these stupid counselling meetings and shittt and we all saw a different side of each other we never ever saw. It was quite upsetting, but a big eye opener.
Anyway yeah me and my sisters dont do that whole emotional thing with people coz we've just been use to it. We dont mean to be rude or anything. And with the martins...we see them all the time so its like i guess...gosh this is gonna sound stupid...its like we dont need to give them a proper greeting!?! I mean its not like we only see them once a yr.....AND YES i know that sounds bloody stupid and lame and its not even good enough for an excuse!!!
Fckk so yeah its kinda humiliating thinking about it. Like even in the philippines we dont show that kind of respect as much as i thought we did. And we were younger then so it didnt matter as much...and now if we do go later this year...its kinda expected that we do stuff like that. And not doing grace and stuff. Fckk. We dont mean to show disrespect...i guess its just the way weve been brought up?? Okay i cant entirely blame it on that because we arnt force to not not do stuff like that.
Hmmm lets just say i wont be going to their place anytime soon, and try to avoid all contact till i clear my mind and get organised and get a friggin job. Which is why i cant wait to start uni. Afterall i dont want any fuckn things like this to start... We already had to deal with that broken hill one which is now in the past.
So yeah thats whats been going on in my mind lately. So i guess when i'm trying to fufill that last new years resolution...which should really be a lifetime one...and its not only to be grateful, but to also show some respect....expecially those who are close to you.
Well its not happening. Not now anyway.
Coz today i realised alot of stupid things that i need to change.
If i go back to my earlier blogs of this year... i prob mentioned my new years resolutions...
Lets get an update on that.
So 1) Play guitar....yeh ive been trying to look at stuff every now and then
2) My tagalog... yeh ive been looking at the book clarisse and rosingo gave every now and then
3) Be more grateful....yeah well that is what i need to work on!!!
*Sigh* this is taking me long to actually type... because thinking about it makes me feel like a fool and embarrassed for being soo...rude!? But i have to face it now before it becomes bigger and i just become a total biatchhh
Anyway i had the most annoying morning. And it was also audreys birthday. So we go to Their house. And i dont know i was just soo buggered and *** looked kinda busy so i didnt go over to say hi... which i usually do... the point is i just basically went in there and didnt greet anyone...and he was really really pissed coz even clarisse went to him while i was having a convo and he kinda said something to her.
Farrrrk i dunno anyway yeh ive been thinking... as a famiily me and my sisters usually say hi and shizz when relatives and visitors come over...but recently that just faded. I dunno why. I guess coz we dont really do it to our parents anymore because recently alot of shizz has happened which hasnt been nice. Last year especially was fckn tough coz we even had to go to these stupid counselling meetings and shittt and we all saw a different side of each other we never ever saw. It was quite upsetting, but a big eye opener.
Anyway yeah me and my sisters dont do that whole emotional thing with people coz we've just been use to it. We dont mean to be rude or anything. And with the martins...we see them all the time so its like i guess...gosh this is gonna sound stupid...its like we dont need to give them a proper greeting!?! I mean its not like we only see them once a yr.....AND YES i know that sounds bloody stupid and lame and its not even good enough for an excuse!!!
Fckk so yeah its kinda humiliating thinking about it. Like even in the philippines we dont show that kind of respect as much as i thought we did. And we were younger then so it didnt matter as much...and now if we do go later this year...its kinda expected that we do stuff like that. And not doing grace and stuff. Fckk. We dont mean to show disrespect...i guess its just the way weve been brought up?? Okay i cant entirely blame it on that because we arnt force to not not do stuff like that.
Hmmm lets just say i wont be going to their place anytime soon, and try to avoid all contact till i clear my mind and get organised and get a friggin job. Which is why i cant wait to start uni. Afterall i dont want any fuckn things like this to start... We already had to deal with that broken hill one which is now in the past.
So yeah thats whats been going on in my mind lately. So i guess when i'm trying to fufill that last new years resolution...which should really be a lifetime one...and its not only to be grateful, but to also show some respect....expecially those who are close to you.
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1.15am
ok this is really bugging me. Its not a big deal...i mean it is. Whatever- its wont leave my mind. I didnt exactly write down everything that happened. I mean when i look back and go through the things i said, it may have come out wrong and make me look like a fuckn idiot and bitch. And its eating me up for some reason. Well yeah that reason being i was i had no manners. I know im sorry and i would do anything to change it but i cant, so i just have to move on and fix what i can from here. i didnt mean for it to come out that way. Well things like this have always been awkward. So i should just pray that i make the right decision and change.
I'm looking at the Blessed Mary Mackillop Quote of the Week i cut out ages ago, and i should prob pay close attention to that - "Put kind constructions where you can and where you cannot, be silent" 15.11.1878
1.15am
ok this is really bugging me. Its not a big deal...i mean it is. Whatever- its wont leave my mind. I didnt exactly write down everything that happened. I mean when i look back and go through the things i said, it may have come out wrong and make me look like a fuckn idiot and bitch. And its eating me up for some reason. Well yeah that reason being i was i had no manners. I know im sorry and i would do anything to change it but i cant, so i just have to move on and fix what i can from here. i didnt mean for it to come out that way. Well things like this have always been awkward. So i should just pray that i make the right decision and change.
I'm looking at the Blessed Mary Mackillop Quote of the Week i cut out ages ago, and i should prob pay close attention to that - "Put kind constructions where you can and where you cannot, be silent" 15.11.1878
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Soooooooo
Ok ive been so bored lately.
I dont know why i dont get excited to write in this blog anymore. I guess its a good thing.
Because all my posts are about topics that annoy the hell out of me and just things and people that piss me off BAD!!!
So yeah its all good i guess. I must scan the other stuff i actually wrote out on pen and paper when the internet was super slow. Because i cbf rewriting it.
Anyway Ive been to like a couple of parties lately which has kept me sane. I mean imagine being an 18yr old who is just at home all day...wakes up in the arvo...can't go out because she has no money because she cbf getting a job...yeah its pretty boring!!!
Parties this month:
Which is why i soooo can't wait till uni
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omfg i wrote this really long blog and it didnt fuckn save the last bit
so pissed
Anyway the things i wrote about were
So i'll try rewriting it coz i cbf at the moment HATE YOU STUPID BLOG/INTERNET CONNECTION!!!!
I dont know why i dont get excited to write in this blog anymore. I guess its a good thing.
Because all my posts are about topics that annoy the hell out of me and just things and people that piss me off BAD!!!
So yeah its all good i guess. I must scan the other stuff i actually wrote out on pen and paper when the internet was super slow. Because i cbf rewriting it.
Anyway Ive been to like a couple of parties lately which has kept me sane. I mean imagine being an 18yr old who is just at home all day...wakes up in the arvo...can't go out because she has no money because she cbf getting a job...yeah its pretty boring!!!
Parties this month:
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| From January 2010 |
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| From January 2010 |
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| From January 2010 |
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| From January 2010 |
Which is why i soooo can't wait till uni
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omfg i wrote this really long blog and it didnt fuckn save the last bit
so pissed
Anyway the things i wrote about were
- getting organised before uni
- lady gaga gig/ options on how to get there
- gossip girl
- monica and the geo assignment
- the knock at 3am
- not sleepong till after 3am
- doing my nails for the 50th time this wk
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| From Gossip Girl |
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| From Gossip Girl |
So i'll try rewriting it coz i cbf at the moment HATE YOU STUPID BLOG/INTERNET CONNECTION!!!!
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