Friday, January 22, 2010

Mixed Feelings

Ok i dont remember the last time i wrote in this and what i said i needed to write in my next one coz my heads everywhere atm.

You know when your stressing about something...then it gets all fixed...and then you stress about something else... well thats me!!!

I always need to stress about something ALWAYS

Something i dont need to stress about is UNIVERSITY!!!! yepp

Double Degree in Bachelor of Business and Science in Information Technology in University of Technology here i come ;)

And i got a new phone...its locked on virgin though which sucks coz i want my optus no. still...so i got to wait a while or recharge over 80 bucks.

Anyway Belinda- yepp we are friends now despite our history- bought us tickets to Lady GaGa woooo....now need to learn all her songs before march :|

And right now im watching the Hope for Haiti... since school finished and its the holidays...i havnt lept up with the news which is sad and bad. Anyway yeah this massive earthquake happened and theres this thing on to help them...and taylor swift just sang...i love and dislike her at the same time maybe coz shes soo pretty and has a great voice!?!) And theres also All these celebs taking calls...like reese witherspoon who looks so fake everytime the camera spans on her.

Now kidman is talking.

ohh i got a msg from shannon.

Anyway i should write more when my mind is more clearer and i can think normally again.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Now what

Well the Fullers left on Friday :( yet my room still isnt clean.

We did a lot of fun stuff with them...we went to coogee and bundeena which was fun.

Rosemarie, Clarisse and Audrey are going on Tuesday to Broken Hill...and i soo wanna go but i kinda already organised this sleepover thing with isabel and mullens.... and isabel is crazy organised. So i might just hop on a bus on wednesday. Which is kinda annoying coz thew trains are only once a wk...on a monday...and so id have to change for a bus at Dubbo..and the thought of that freaks me out for some reason. But we'll see.

Atm clarisse and rosemarie are having little annoying episodes with each other...well mainly rosingo coz she was all packed...was trying to convince clarisse to come...then mum couldnt get a hold of tita donna...so she unpacked...then mum got a hold of tita donna...and apparently she sounded stressed out according to rosemarie so then she didnt feel like going anymore.

And the reason why clarisse wasnt definite about going was coz she needed to organise herself which is crazy because she should be done doing that by now before she enters prelim year.

Anyway on saturday i also went to the villawood detention centre. I had this picture in my head that it was like a jail...you know...like people all wore the same fluro orange shirts....and go attacking everyone...and behind bars and stuff...i dunno why i thought that but yeh

and it was actually totally totally different. We got there and the first guy came...he was so young and he looked like one of those european surfy backbackers...like young and blondish hair...anyway he was from afghanistan and he was only 22. And he was decently dressed too. Apparently he got off the plane in sydney and seeked asylum. And then theres this other guy who was really talkative...numat salami or somehting and he was from iran.

And it didnt seem too bad in there. i mean we didnt go in the buildings but they said they had a gym, library, computer access, a movie room and the only thing that sucked about the place was that they had to do a lot of english lessons (obviously since they want a visa) and that theyre all locked up in the middle of no where. I described it to isabel as a nursing home...except all fenced up...and she laughed...and i told her that it was probably where all the people from border security show go...and she laughed again.

Anyway i should clean my room since them two are gonna sleeepover and theyre dropping theyre stuff off at 11 before they go to fitness first.

OMG how can i forget... we went to kurringai or wotevs and walked down to apple tree bay in bundeena and i nearly DIED. I was like "f*ck why the hell did i agree to this...people do this for fun WTF" Going back up was the worst coz all i could see was hill after hill after hill which we had to climb up. And it didnt help that stupid me wore shoes a tad too small for my feet and sockettes..and so it resulted in big blisters which is soo annoying.

Don't get me wrong..it was a great expereince that i thanked tita Mel for...but its not something i would do regularly...i mean it would be like inflicting pain on myself at a regular basis!!??!? I mean...sore feet...bum hurts...calves hurt. That was an exercise routine that should last me a month. I was like the only one asking for breaks...twice...it was sooo tiring and it also didnt help that it was boiling hot by the time we got uphill..so im glad we had an early start...woke up at 630!!!

Ohh and as we were going up all i could think about was a massive slurpee..and when we got there i realised there were no freakin shops at kurugai station...it was freakin isolated!!!!

Argh and i had that miley cyrus song in my head...its the climb

"I can almost see it...this dream im dreaming...theres a voice inside my head saying you'll never reach it [f*ck that line did not help at all].....
Aint about how fast i get there...aint about whats waiting on the other siiiiiiiide....its the climb"

And so i was like wtf...the climb is stupid...you aint suppose to think about the stupid climb and pain you have to go through...it what you think will be on the other side...the end...that helps!!! Stupid miley.

I think im exaggerating here about the walk since i was the only one really really exhausted at the end of it. Actually tita mel seemed really sick...she vomited twice on the way back coz it hink she had a massive headache since the morning...so she was pretty strong to be doing the walk..she drunk like 5 water bottles...meanwhile i had a bottle half the size of hers...and i refilled it once...so technically i only had 1 bottle...i hate water unless it like chilled cold...and it was boiling hot and the water was warm and it didnt taste nice...i guess id die if i lived out there :|

And i didnt even drink half the water...everytime tita mel reminded me to keep drinking and stay hydrated...i just poured it onto my head and chest...i was just think of the slurpee which i didnt get till we got to rockdale :(

Maybe walking 4 and a bit km in 5 hours or wotevs isnt my thing... for future note i shall stick with yoga or something :)

Anyway exhausted.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Loving Summer

So yeah today was interesting. I woke up at 6ish because we were meant to leave here at 7am for Bondi. And i was like...the Fullers always get up early...so i better get up especially early...

And they only woke up at 7!!! And i had a dream that they left me behind...so i didnt go back to sleep.

Instead i started to read a bit of this - "How to cut down on shopping" ...or something like that book that Tita Dona leant me. It was kinda interesting cos the author...i could related to her...coz she always said how she'd save up money for all these expensive fanshionisty stuff which i dream of owning too.

Anyway yeah and then we went to DFO and i bought this dress from Dotti...which is kinda tight on me...so i full on had to wear this corset and it actually felt alright.

Then I went to this vinnies group meeting that isabel goes to in kinsgrove...and it was their first meeting for 2010 and i actually found all the stuff that they do rather interesting. So hopefully this will help in my new years resolution-to be more grateful.

Ohh and i kinda volunteered to go to the Villawood Detention Centre on Saturday which is gonna be rather interesting.

Now completely exhausted. Bed time

Friday, January 8, 2010

Its I woke up like an hr ago ...and its now 1026 am so i think this is the earliest ive woken up this yr whoopeeeeeeee

still tired

anyway yehh the fullers are here...except the kids are at tita mel's place where they slept over last night

and tonight were going to watch this movie called UP...nearly everyone who ive spoken to about it says its really good...even kuya bryan mentioned it

Ohh and ive been invited to kathleen and amy d's 18th...and for amy d's its kinda like in a restaurant and samantha is invited...i doubt she'd come...but if she did...i wouldnt be scared or anything (bahahahhah of her...nahh shes just a freak)...yehh it would just be very very interesting....amy would prob purposly have me seated next to her or something (F*Ck)

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Ok So i kinda cleaned my room. i Should really take a picture of it before the fullers come and it all goes back to normal again.

So yeah theyre coming tomorrow around 4ish in the arvo which gives me time to go to the 2dollar shops and find a frame for the puzzle which has been in the living room for ages now

And yehh oh omg my friend andrea has always really really wanted to go to uts...so i asked her a few hrs ago what she put down as her preferences over fb...and she put the exact same as me!!! As in she put B Business and B Science in Information Technology!! Thats like sooo exciting...i may know someone who i can tag along with for the beginning of the yr xD

Anyway i should really have a shower now and clean my room before they come

ohh and i bought...well rosemarie actually, but im gona pay her back i swear...a purple skirt....its so exciting because i dont have heaps of skirts so im prob gna live in it for the rest of the week

ciao

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

hmmm

no still havnt cleaned my room hahha.

well i better ssoon since the fullers are coming on friday.

I think ive been too busy trying to sort out my uni preferences.

We went to macquarie..then uts..then unsw the other day lmao crazy

and im now thinking of a career in IT.
I chose Bachelor of Business and Bachelor of Information Technology at UTS as my 2nd preference, but i put commerce in unsw first which i doubt id get coz of my atar. But if i dont get into that i wont be disappointed...coz apparently people find it boring anyway...and i think i was only convinced to do it coz it sounds all smart lmao

But anyway fingers crossed i get into B of Business and IT at UTS because then id have to do Information Systems at UNSW which is a single degree...gahhh so annoying.

Anyway im also considering on buyig a guitar since kuya bryan said the guitar sounded a bit iffy after he changed the strings...ohh and he also sent me this link for inspiration http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErMWX--UJZ4
but i cant watch it since i blocked youtube coz we are currently over our usage which sucks. But what i could make out of it was some lil asian kid playing the guitar.

I really want to play...it would be awesome.

Anyway the three of us are like watching this tagalog movie- my kuya's wedding which is retarded and sad at the same time lmao.

im trying to watch more so that when we go to the phils later this year (which i am like extremely excited for!!!!!) i can talk tagalog :) awesome

Sunday, January 3, 2010

So what now?

Yay i finished the puzzle yesterday arvo. But Noo i have yet to finish my room. Seriously they say its all my stuff when really i dont even own half the stuff in my own room. People treat it as a junk yard or something gahh.

And last night i was thinking about my uni preferences. And if i really wanna do this or that. And i was really thinking about the environmental science one in UNSW...like do i really see myself working outdoors...getting all dirty in the soil and stuff...and my mum reminded me i wouldnt be wearing much office work kinda outfits which would really suck. Coz i always dreamed about walking into my own office wearing a pair of Jimmy Choos.

But hey whatevs happens...happens for a reason!?

So yeah our preferences must all be in pretty soon. And hopefully my mum can talk sense into me about these stupid choices. I think we might go to Macquarie University tomoz if she can get time off work.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Quotes...

Okay im nearly finished cleaning my room...its still pretty messy...but i blame it on the disorganised use of 3 massive wardrobes which only contain 1/4 of stuff i actually own.



Still waiting on the big built in wardrobe with a massive mirror so i can stare at myself endlessly in my own privacy lmao!!!




Anyway its like 3:46am and recently ive been hearing/ telling people about those freaky- true to life stories so i dont want to sleep just yet.

Ohhh and i also started this fairy puzzle for the 5th time since i got it in like 2003. I finished it in 3 days apparently :) ...says it in the back of one of the pieces

Anyway yehh i dont want to sleep for that reason and because im confused still on what i want to do as in my uni preferences which must be in by the 6th. Anyway i think my mum knows best so i let her look at the courses and suggest stuff to me. And everytime she called out one...all i would think is ..."How would that sound when i told people!?"...hahah as in like "Does 'Bachelor in Science and Information Technology' sound lame???" And it prob sounds stupid...i mean youu dont bloody choose a course just because it sounds smart. So thats what ive been thinking...like is it worth travelling to Macquarie University just because i want to do commerce...because it sounds good...and "Do i really really want to do something in economics/ commerce-y stuff??"

Anyway yehh so ive been thinking heaps...and i looked at some of these quote books we have lying everywhere in the house...and it sounds lame as...but some are actually totally true and motivational...so yeah im in monica's room at the moment trying looking at some of em, and i think im gonna post all the ones i think are awesome and i want to remember during times like this in the future...


This is gonna be one long post...so here it goes .... ;)
"Most people see success as being rich or famous and influential. Others see it as being at the top of their profession and standing out from the rest.

The wise see success in a more personal way; they set it as achieving the goals they have set for themselves, and then feeling pride and satisfaction in their accomplishments.

True success is felt in the heart, not measured by money and power."
- Tim Tweedie


"Unless you walk out into the unknown, the odds of making a profound difference in life are pretty low." (Days when im feeling lazy haha)
- Tom Peters


"At least once a day, allow yourself to think and dream for yourself."

- Albert Einstein

"It is not what we do, but also what we do not do, for which we are accountable."
- Moliere

"There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it's going to be a butterfly."
- Buckminister Fuller

"I dream for a living"
- Steven Spielberg


"The brain simply beleives what you tell it most. And what you tell it about you, it will create. It has no choice."

-Chandler Fuller


"Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe we are gifted for something."

- Marie Curie


"Nothing great was ever created without enthusiasm."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson


"It's all about following your bliss, losing it, and finding it again."
- Natalie Chapman.

"Don't follow your dreams, chase them."

- Anonymous


"The Path to a dream is paved with sacrifices and lined with determination. And though it has many stumbling blocks along the way and may go in more than one direction, it is marked with faith.

It is traveled by belief and courage, persistence and hard work.

It is conquered with a willingness to face challenges and take chances, to fail and try again and again.

Along the way, you may have to confront doubts, setbacks and unfairness.


But when the path comes to an end, you will find that there is no greater joy than making your dream come true."
- Barbara Cage

"If there is one characteristic that all great champions share, it's an enormous sense of pride. That's true in all walks of life. The people who excel are those who are driven to show the world - and prove themselves- just how good they are."

- Nancy Lopez

"When you have a goal in life that takes a lot of energy, that requires a lot of work, that incurs a great deal of interest and that is a challenge to you, you will always look forward to waking up to see what the new day will bring."
- Susan Polis Schutz


Success is...
"...Not measure by how well you fulfill the expectations of others, but by how honestly you live up to your own opportunities."
- Linda Principe

"Clear your mind of can't"
- Samuel Johnson

"Only those who risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go."
- T.S. Eliot

Ohh and someone on the train not so long ago told us that
"If your mind can conceive it...you can achieve it" xD

Wow i don't think i've typed like that for soo long since i had to write essays at school... well i wont be too happy about that since im going to star uni in like 2months and it will prob be equal in torture.

So yeah its now 4:38 and i think i better go to bed pretty soon...mum asked yesterday if we wanted to have that chinese porridge stuff that rosemarie likes at hurstville for breakfast...so hopefully i will be up for that...i really wanna go out...its like im prisoned...i need to be freeeeeeeee

Well thats most of the quotes i found in books...there are heaps more other ones from my fav shows like gossip girl which i think are pretty funny and true to life. But i had this thing called HSC all year so i kinda need to catch up badly!!!

And i dont know if this is going to work in my early years...but i really dont wanna spend my life "living to work" as id rather "work to live"... well after i get those bloody expensive and incredibly cute pair of jimmy choos...and have a wardrobe looking like this ....lmao

Hopefully i can remember these random things to keep me sane through this year and achieve my personal goals...and the resolutions lmao. Kuya b just wrote that i didnt have to go along with the playign guitar thing unless i wanted to...well i do and i'll show people i can actually do something lol...and they can see it for themselves when i post a new vid up on youtube of me and clarisse doing another random weird thing haha.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Off with a great start

Well i actually had a great new years day today. We spent most the afternoon at uncle pats & tita mel's place playing pictionary...eating lamingtons...those prufetta custard rolls thingys...drinking punch..and lots of stuff.

and we also met tita mel's tennis friend ben. i had an awesome time and it was heaps fun.

Now im sitting in my room trying to clean up before the fullers come in like a week ;|

But yeah. Hopefully i can keep up this positive energy for at least 364 more days...whats left of 2010 which has just began.

Thats sounds soo awesome...2010...hahah