Why.

I don't know if this is normal or what. It's 1am and I have a big day tomorrow and I have to get up early. But I can't sleep because I'm thinking about someone. I don't know what it is. Maybe it's because I have been so anti - social recently and haven't seen anyone in ages. Farout. I don't know what this is but it's so freakin' weird and annoying. Seriously can't get it off my mind. Sleeeeep girl!

When we fail, God prevails ?

Farrout i didn't think i would ever have to make a post about this.

Long story short, I need a job asap or this is just not going to go away.

And since our internet is super slow, im going to go to Kogarah Library on Monday and search for jobs and study for Programming Fundamentals @!##$%V$

Well basically all week I've been hearing from my mother and Tita Claret that NCR has this new receptionist who is taking over part time for one of the girls.

And they keep asking me why that James guy hasn't called me. Probably because I never called him back or even emailed him after all that.

I dunno i just left under bad circumstances. It was a nightmare that I felt like I had to run away from.

F#*#@$&$

And i'm pretty sure all my funds that I made from there are now gone.

And summer is here. This sucks bad.

I keep thinking why. Why did that freakin thing have to stuff up on me. Why did I have to be so confused that I didnt take the best approach to all this. Why why WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

And i'm hoping God let this happen for a reason. And something bigger and better is coming my way.

Fingers crossed and praying anyway.

Praying to get a job and be employed and just try to attempt kickstarting my career.

How the hell would I get those Jimmy Choos otherwise?

Mother Teresa

Ok so i wouldn’t say today was the most productive day i’ve had so far this week. I didn’t do a lot of things, but i did learn a lot of other things that weren’t related to Programming, Economics, Marketing or Web Systems.

Well first off i got to Central to meet up with a close friend of mine. I get off platform 25, walk up the long escalators, put my ticket in the machine, walk the long tunnel full of busy working people, students, buskers, and the occasional begger, and finally reach the end 10 minutes later. I call her, and she only got on at her station!

So instead of going straight to uni, i stopped by the discount book store and looked at the stuff. I found this one book titled – The Words and Inspirations of Mother Teresa: Love. And i bought it. I thought it would be a good read, rather than buying another trashy Cleo or Cosmo magazine.

And had a long day catching up with friends, that i didn’t get to read it until it was time to go home. I got to Central Station at 11:16pm, only to find out that i had missed the train by 1 minute. ONE MINUTE! And I was so angry for a moment because I was so tired and hungry and just wanted to go home. So as i waited for another next 16minutes for the next train, and i scavenged through my bag for the little book. And i’m glad i did.

I mean, yes i failed myself in not having a good day of study, and i was tired and missed the train by friggin 1 minute, but praise God i witnessed a lot of amazing things today, which i was reminded of when i read the first few pages of the book. It wasn’t anything mind blowing and completely life changing, but it was still incredible, because i saw that God is truely there, here with us, even in the least obvious moments and places – in the conversations i had with people, whether long or very brief, through the things and scenes i saw as i walked practically to the other side of the busy city and back.

And reading this little book about Mother Teresa, reminded me of God and His love for us. Tomorrow I have uni from 6 – 8pm, but since I wasn’t so productive today, i’m going to try to come earlier tomorrow. And then at 8pm i’m going to train it to Martin Place at the first stop of Vinnies Night Patrol. And reading this little book is preparing me for it. Okay, so it’s not my first night patrol, but usually i have a busy day and when i go to do it, i come home and it takes a while to process it all. I mean, i realise how lucky i am in that i have a roof on my head, my family and i are healthy, and i have amazing friends who i know i can turn to for support. But sometimes i just don’t realise how much i take that all for granted.

I haven’t finished this book yet, but already i feel so inspired by Mother Teresa. Praise God for her and her works which have touched so many people today.

The biggest disease today is not leprosy or tuberculosis, but rather the feeling of being unwanted, uncared for and deserted by everybody. The greatest evil is the lack of love and charity, the terrible indifference towards one’s neighbours...

-          Mother Teresa

>><<

Silence. Be content.

Well i got home after another long night at uni. The lab this week was annoying and i didnt even have enough time to complete the task, so i only got 35/100.

Then i walked the long tunnel at Central to get home, waited 5 minutes for the train.

It wasn't as packed tonight so thank God i got a seat because i was exhausted.

Then the train got the Wolli Creek and that's when i usually text Dad to let him know i'm 5 minutes away from Rockdale Station so that he can pick me up.

I got of at Rockdale, sat on the bus bench for a good 10 minutes, but i didn't mind tonight since it wasn't a freezing cold night.

10 minutes later. He still didn't turn up.

So i just walked home.

And then i realised that the car wasn't out the front. The front room lights weren't switched on as they usually are. And it looked as if the house was extremely quiet. Just dark and lonely and empty as if no one was home.

Then i realised that something must of gone wrong. And that's when i remembered that the Martin's Grandmas hasn't been feeling well recently and so i assumed she had gone to a better place.

I opened the door, dropped my things on the floor and knocked on Ayana's bedroom door, and she confirmed it.

It's made me realise a lot. All this.

Life is short and so we gotta make the most of it.

I'm going to pray that their grandma is now in another place, somewhere where she can rest in peace. I'm going to pray for Tito Fred and his family. Not only are there other issues they have dealt with recently, now they have to go through this phase in life. And i personally haven't gone through such sad grief, but i know it's not easy. And the girls, they have now loss both their grandparents on that side, so it must be devastating for them.

I just got a phone call while i was writing this. It was from Tita Dona - Birthday Girl! We spoke about all this, and one thing i did get from her, was that's life's too short so you gotta be content. Although she's admitted herself that's she not religious, she tells me to keep doing what i'm doing with my charity work, youth work and to keep serving. Because you are truely reminded of how fortunate you are. You can be rich and have massive houses and whatever, but eventually you will hit a point and realise that you can't buy yourself happiness. You can't buy yourself family and friends who make your life so much richer and happier. It just doesn't work like that.

I don't know when this actually all happened, because Tita was kinda surprised when she found out that i only found out when i got home.

But anyway, it's going to be a quiet night. I think i might say the Rosary. Not turn the tele on tonight, and just do quiet things like maybe catch up on my economics notes.

I cant eveeen

think for myself anymore.

This is stupid. Uni is stupid.

Okay yeah i take that back.

But its just so frustrating because nothing is going right today. And to make things worse, it's cold and raining and i'm in CBB mode >.<

Pleaaaase make something good happen today. Just one thing that will keep me going over the weekend.

FML

Can probably already guess what happened.

The End.

Well this sucks.

So im sitting on the third floor in the UTS library.

I got here earlier than normal, at about 11:30ish because this library gets soo friggin full sometimes and its just frustrating. 

So yeah i found a seat right at the back of level 3. Near a window that looks out at the back of Haymarket. And it's cold.

It was so hot on the way here, and on facebook everyone keeps saying what a beautiful sunny day it is, but no. I can't have a look because i'm stuck here. 

I haven't even eaten since I woke up and left and all i've had is about 3 pieces of airways gum. Ahh and I'm still sick and I ran outta tissues.

So yeah, i'm basically stuck here because I have a massive laptop which has made my shoulders sore just carrying it around, and I can't just leave it here =.=". 

NEED A SMALLER LAPTOP !

I should probably check out the lockers here for tomorrow when i come in earlier. Apparently they go out quick though in the mornings. Great. Just great.

Anyway yeah i haven't really done much, just rewrote the linuxgym hints/ notes because i get none of it. And then i have to start looking back at last week's Programming lecture notes because I have the Programming lecture at 6pm and i don't want to be in the labs till 9pm. FML.

When the night feels very long, remember that a new day is just around the bend.

With each new day we are given new hope, new possibilities, new opportunities. Each new day is a

m  i  r  a  c  l  e  .

Well this kinda makes sense. Last night i finished my economics report at 4am and because of that i got sick. I woke up at about 10am this morning and just felt that disgusting feeling where you're throat is all dry and eeky and i felt really dizzy and hot. I thought i was getting a fever or something.

And so i slept in and missed out on Web Systems. And this week the linuxgym was apparently hard. Great.

But yeah at least i have one assignment down, closer to the end of sem :)

Ohh and we have a UTS YFC meeting again tomorrow! Yay havnt seen heaps of peeps since camp!

Simone Bautista: [what's on your mind?]

Used 8 times: Uni

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Used 5 times: Exam

Used 5 times: Night

Used 5 times: Shannon

Used 4 times: Nice

Used 4 times: Watching

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Cant finish this report until my room is cleaned.

I swear this is going to be the last post  ... for another couple couple of hours until my room is clean and this report is done!

I quite like this pic of a corner of my room :)

But yeah this is the rest of my room at the moment haha . . .

Umm so apparently i ran outta space on my picasa account :|

Whoops.
 

Thinking about the most randomest things.

Obviously i'm procrastinating.

But yeah on facebook i was looking at people's names. Like those on my friends list who are now married so it's got both their names like 

"Girl Lastname - Marriedname "

But it would be frggin hilarious to see what my last name would be. And thinking about the day that i will change my facebook name to:

"Simone Bautista - ???? "

 

AHAHAHAH

Yes im bored and procrastinating.

Just scraping through. Simone, this is not acceptable.

So basically last night i found out all my marks for my midsem assessments.

And although I havnt failed any yet, i'm just scrapping through and passing.

Yes i'm kinda dissapointed. I mean i'm not use to seeing such disgustingly low marks. 

And i blame it on this one subject that's really affected my other subjects in that i havnt set my priorities out right and havent really spent much time studying them.

But like i said in an earlier post this week, it's never too late to start changing.

Yes its pass midsem, but i can at least try my hardout best for finals and finish this sem satisfied to say the very least.

It's possible.

Economics Report, write yourself. Kthanksbye.

You have been commissioned by a consumer group to help them analyse, understand and critique the decision by the ACCC to allow Australia Post to increase the cost of stamps (further details are outlined in the media article).

The consumer group is a bit annoyed with the decision to raise the price of stamps and wants to investigate the issue further. In particular they are keen to lobby the ACCC to reconsider their decision or to agitate the federal government to explore alternatives to keep the cost of postage down.

They have asked you to write a brief report for them. No more than 1200 words

Somewhere in the report, discuss the following:

1.       

What is the institutional and economic environment facing Australia Post including changing demand conditions and the relationship to the government and the ACCC?

2.      How could it be argued that allowing the rise in stamp prices was unnecessary and wrong?

3.     What are the alternatives? In particular an economist at the consumer group has suggested that Australia Post’s mail monopoly could be ended or that the company could be privatised.

1.                   Executive Summary

-          single paragraph

-          outline:

o   purpose

o   findings

o   conclusion

2.                  Introduction

-          Briefly discuss newspaper article

-          The context for the decision regarding stamp prices (including demand conditions)

-          Institutional relationships between Australia Post, ACCC and the government [this should address concern 1 above]

-          Briefly outline the structure of the remainder of your report

3.                  Conceptual Framework

-          Outline conceptual framework (along the lines of that discussed in lectures, regarding the regulation of monopolies.

-          Discuss:

o   prices

o   quantities

o   profits

o   costs

o   may also insert at least one figure here

4.                  Analysis

-          Provide some analysis of the decision:

o   why was it made? (ACCC reports)

o   was it a reasonable decision?

o   what are the alternatives?

Here goes nothing

Kinda Scared. But whatever.

It's in God's hands :)

Incredible things I watched on TV today...

Some incredible things I watched today on television as i procrastinated yet again . . .

A woman in Brazil avoids major injuries after being thrown 40 feet by a car.

Raising Cane’s^® founder and CEO Todd Graves and his wife Gwen participated in Fox’s philanthropic reality show Secret Millionaire™. They spent a week posed as normal people in South Plaquemines Parish, Louisiana, a community destroyed by Hurricane Katrina, the largest natural disaster in U.S. history. The Graves’ were challenged to find people that their philanthropic gifts nearing $400,000, would have the most impact on the community as a whole, and were inspired to meet “angels walking the earth” that put others before themselves to rebuild their community.

To tumblr. Or to not tumblr?

EVERYONE's GOT ONE!

Or so it seems anyway.

I was on facebook just now and came across Ate Clarice's one, and it's like a little dedication to her little baby girl that's due soon :)

Hmm with Programming is out of the way, I'm excited to start this Economics report. 

Well kinda.

Despite my lack of energy due to no sleep for over 22 hours, this day seems to be starting of pretty okay :)

So i have an interview on Thursday for this thing I applied for last week. 

Hopefully it turns out well. It's not as formal as my last interview with Manpower and NCR, although its still an interview.

But hey whatever happens, happens.

Turning point. Strive for excellence till Finals.

It's currently 06:32am and I havnt slept for about 18 hours now.

I tried to reduce my duplicate codes, but everytime i tried, it would stuff up my bonus points.

So i'm praying to GOd that nothing happens so that i will get my final PLATE mark which is 60/100.

I just want to pass this subject so i hope it works.

And like i said in my previous points, there's no point regretting and sooking about the stupid mistakes i've done, such as not managing my time and not giving my all in classes. 

Which is why i've decided to try and be better for the rest of the sem, all the way to Finals.

So i'm going to start writing a new timetable so that i manage my time better and balance out uni with my social life. 

I'm going to put write it in my Red Book because that way i will actually be more motivated to even look at it, and plus, my red book is pretty empty at the moment. I miss it. I've been blogging too much :P

I CAN DO THIS! I mean yes, the next assignments are going to be harder than this one, but i have to give my all and anything is possible with Him by our side and He will appreciate the efforts. 

And in the end, I will just feel awesome :)

If only . . .

I was looking the other day at tumblr because i've come across a lot of awesome ones lately. And it looks heaps simple but complicated at the same time. LOL

i dunno, i think i'll just stick with blogspot for now.

Anyway, so i was on Facebook and just came across my cousin's tumblr.

AND it's no surprise, i finished reading one of the posts and i was like wow!

He is seriously such a good writer, i mean i've read a couple of his posts and notes and he clearly articulates his thoughts and writes things in ways that make it all seem so amazing and powerful!

One of the quotes that he had in there that i really liked was

“The best time to plant a tree, was twenty years ago. The second best time is today.”
-Chinese Proverb 

And i understood it straight away because its something i always think about. I think i think about it probably even on a daily basis.

Because things go wrong. And I always think, if only i could turn back time and do this and that in certain ways. But then if you think about it, it happened for a reason, so now start changing and do things in ways that will bring out the best in you NOW and stop sooking about it! This same wise guy also said, that  "While it's good to hope in what God has for you in the future, where you are now is where God wants you to be. And you gotta see the beauty in that too." (i think i blogged about this a few weeks back)

Many times i think, 

"if only i could turn back time to a particular moment."

But what if i were to go into the future and say

"If only i could turn back time to this particular moment ..." The very exact moment now, where i am wasting my time thinking if only... 

okay yeah i dunno if this is all gonna make sense whan i read it again down the track.

Basically we think there's nothing we can do about things because its simply lost in time and there's no point starting again now, But we shouldn't get discouraged and should just put all our trust in Him, like i mentioned in my previous post, and then we would have no regrets of if only . . .

P . M . S .

Philip . Miguel . Simone .

04.10.2010

Procrastinating and watching Vampire Diaries in the First Year IT lounge.

 

I have had so many mixed feelings today about a lot of things. One being stressed out and paranoid and worried about stupid programming.

I just have this weird feeling that I'm going to get caught doing you know what. 

Which is why i;m kinda glad i went to the outing today in the city with Philip, Miguel, Dot, Chun and Ryan. We went to this really nice Asian retaurant in China Town and had lunch. I need to remember the name lol because it was yummy! We had this butter pankcake things and it was yummehh! Ohh and the satay sauce was d e  l i s h !

And then we went to maccas for dessert with what was left of the change. And kinda chilled in Hyde Park and St. Mary's.

I wish i had more days like today. Just sit with friends and just chill. 

Even though today it was pretty obvious i had this dumb assignment on my mind.

Then i went back to try fixing my codes at uni while they went to watch a movie. And then after Phil aka my future bestie and Migs came to Building 10. And we chilled in the IT Lounge.

FARROUT soo friggin worried about this. Cant wait till Summer holidays and just start fresh with my mindset at Uni. Though when uni does come to an end this sem, i hope it's a good end. As in nothing extreme happened and i will look back at times like this and think pffftt Why did i worry so much for!?. 

Please God.

But yeah even though nothing was working with my program today and i could not get any more than 60/100, i guess i need to calm down and reflect and Praise God! 

P r a i s e   G o d that nothing extremely bad happened today. 

Yes today was boring, but praise God nothing bad happened to anyone.  

P r a i s e   G o d for my family.

I think i tend to take things for granted, even the smallest things like my Dad picking me up from the station at night when i get back from uni. Or my mum leaving dinner for me when i get home late. Praise God that i even get to eat. I see so many people everyday busking or begging for money on the dirty streets in the city, and i tend to ignore them or hurry pass them, and not even think about the things they are going through.

P r a i s e   G o d that i have the most beautiful friends.

Today I tried to hide all this stress about my assignments, but obviously i couldnt hide it for too long, and i have the most awesomest friends who are so understanding and caring and and just awesome :). And praise God for my other friends who have helped me with things, whether it be parts of my assignment, or just took the time to listen to my problems and help me sort them out.

I guess at this point I can't do much about it anyway, and I just have to try my best with the rest of my assignments. And everything else is in God's hands.